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February 8, 2018

When we say what we want to say

Taking a month to say just what the fuck we need to say can be highly therapeutic. February in the light of the black moon opens a door for many to feel compelled. 
Let's get behind it and give that to ourselves. 

In being exactly who we are it will both draw near to us those and that meant to be close, while driving away those and that not. 
Both beautiful. 
Those who end up together through a gravitational pull are those who feel truly happy together. That's something to honor and nurture. Let the rest go. It will change the entire outlook to purge that which doesn't belong although it will hang on and leave claw marks. 

Pretenses have no class. 
Health and vitality doesn't respond positively to pretending, or doing things to please others while stifling our own voice and way of life. 
We're all wiser than we give ourselves and others credit. 

Keeping people agreeing with us, liking us, or understanding us has no value for anyone. 
Cooperation rarely breeds grand endeavors and if there's anything this world needs right now it's stupendous human beings not afraid to be themselves. Let's be brave and be bold if that's our nature. Pretending won't make others feel more comfortable and will not empower us to be of service. It also does no justice to our energy, which every living being responds to and senses. 

The knowledge that our purpose is not to please or appease others but to speak our truth and live a destiny designed just for us is huge all in itself. 
Do you agree? 
If we're really attempting to reach those heights, it will keep us aligned with that high vibe energy and the petty details will no longer be visible. Our focus will not be on what others may or may not think, or feel of our actions, or our words, but rather the ripple effect of our choices and how we live on a grander scale. 

Characteristics such as, compassion, empathy, kindness, intelligence, intrigue, what the world sees as beauty and also versatility may land us in a variety of circles, but it will be a unique few that end up with you for the long run home. It's okay if we'd rather a smaller group of highly potent relationships as opposed to a mass amount of diluted ones, ones that never fit from the past, ones we may have forced before we woke up, or ones that only existed because we allowed things we know did not serve us. 
Conserve your energy. 
It's a much longer distance than we may have imagined. 

For those with an unrelenting warrior spirit it's time to find your direction and pursue it with an irresistible nature. The world will thank you later and be grateful that you didn't go quietly and demurely into the night politely hiding the wisdom of the ages. Find a way to bring it stripped bare of corruption. 

Let's give ourselves a month to live our purpose, speak our truth just the way we need. Many will know not to take it personally and set aside their ego while gently adjusting. If not, The Four Agreements by Miguel Ruiz and Ancient Toltec Wisdom have swept the worlds over and over guiding on how to help others who may find this a foreign idea. 

Be fierce. We can return to gentle in March. 
Find the reason for being persistent and lead from the deep parts of your heart and soul in your month of rebellion. What's the worst that can happen? 

Sarah K. Grundy xx 

February 3, 2018

For the girl who wants to have it all

I wish this was a parody, or narrative to the underlying meaning of a splendid, abstract art exhibit, but it's an autobiography and I'm not alone. I think women are lying when they say they wouldn't change anything if they had it to do all over again knowing what they know now. Of course, we would and we'd do it way fucking smarter ten times over and over if those chances existed. I don't believe we only get this one life. I have been here before and so have my children. Flesh just seems to help spirit manifest and keeps on going with, or without us. 

So, let's not pretend for the kid's sake, or to protect our precious ego or reputation. 
Let's get real and deeply honest. 
It makes my ass twitch when people far too attached and delusional say things like, (spoken in a squeaky, mousy, cowardly voice) "but if you went back and did it all again knowing what you know now, you wouldn't have Elias or the twins".

No, I would not. 

I was that sister and friend talking people out of parenthood after I saw. 
Naturally, they ignored me as the call of the wild persists like a she-wolf after her prey.
When I say, 'the world changed colors after bringing life', that's literally what happened to me. I looked out the window and it was like I just woke up on a different planet. 

I saw. 
I saw and heard things I never knew existed before, but they were always there. 

I saw. 
I saw the world for what it truly is and that's not child and family conducive most days, and in most ways, as I thought in my innocence. The world has changed from what it once was, but it's also not "the village" they say it takes to raise a child anyway, your babies will want and cry for you. Just you. Daddy won't make the cut or the nanny. Neither of them smells like you, or have their milk in their breasts, or the heartbeat and vibe they knew for practically a year in your womb. 

It's you. Just you. 

There will be no novel writing while they nap. No! So stop it. You'll be laid out drooling, begging for sleep, or mercy until they wake you again. 
Even decades after they stop waking you up, your body will still be waiting for it to happen again like an old war wound from combat days and sleep will remain an elusive memory. 
Elias is 19 and the twins are 15. It's 2:30AM as I write this wired as fuck from being needed to death for well over a decade. And I had help. Lots of help. That's a story for another time. 
My body knows sleeplessness, navigating emotions and deprivation on a soldier level. I had to learn how to train my circadian rhythm under highly undesirable circumstances in order to keep up with that 'having it all' bullshit charade. 
When you can sleep again, you'll stay up just to get time to yourself, and a glimpse of your life, at whatever cost. 
That cost being delirium. 

It's not sexy. It's not humorous. It's serious like a heart attack and you will beg for death, but instead will get eternity. 
It's not like the movies; That fun satire, the rush of busy living and chasing the dream with your fancy stroller, heels and bouncing, gorgeous hair. No! 

There's diarrhea on your fancy stroller, crusty breast milk in your hair, and your feet are too swollen for your Jimmy Choos. 

Plus, you don't care because you're too fucking tired to do anything about it. Don't trick yourself into believing it will be different for you. 
I did. I was wrong. 
It's a fucking horror show. 
Stop watching those stupid fucking commercials, reading those magazines, smelling peoples babies and get real. Don't engage in the seduction. 
Fight back against nature! You wouldn't lay down and die in a tornado, would you? 
No! You evacuate. 

I saw. 
I saw what it took to raise magical humans in the current world and keep them that way. Pure magic doesn't quite exist the same way now that your endless nights of herb smoking, gourmet meals, vintage wine drinking, fancy restaurants, diva dancing and mingling with intellectuals have come to an end. No! It's principals from the murky as fuck black lagoon and parent-teacher meetings with women you don't even like at all who will be talking about you behind your back. 

Its endless years of snotty tissues and vomit is in your favorite Hermes purse that took you 8 years to buy. 

We can't fathom that while we're filled with a calling to create that dates back lifetimes, filled with love, hopes and dreams yet to be smashed to bits by motherhood and adult-onset ADD, which arrives just when you think it's almost over. Plus, it will be different for you, right? No!

It was a very small window of opportunity that made me a mother and it nearly did not happen at all, because I almost saw too much, before the children had the chance to get here through me. (All of them would have made it here with, or without me. They are powerful with a destiny about them!) 
They won. I don't feel I was really made to be a mother. I mean let's keep it real, I love taking care of myself, privacy, adventure and having alone time way too much to be needed as much as you are as a mom. Don't you? Freedom was my most cherished possession. 
The thing about motherhood is even when they're not there, they are and so that bond takes over if you let it. 

I saw. 
I saw what the world was capable of committing and who I'd have to become to protect them from it, and eventually who they would need to become to live as part of it. 

I saw. 
I saw that the earth needs fewer children and more warriors right now. Better would have been getting a big scary guard dog and working out A LOT while learning self-defense and a few yogi superpowers to flip this crazy ass world right side up again. Fuck, what a train wreck. How did we get here? 
Stupid, stupid, stupid. 

I saw. 
I saw that it was a selfish choice. 
The children without homes, the adults who've never known love and the amount of mothering this world needs on a grand scale weren't clear yet and had I known I would have been able to be more of service and chosen differently. 

I saw. 
I saw that it's either you have children, and that becomes your service, your mission, or you make a monumental shift in our beautifully handicapped world by fostering and mothering it, delivering a new creation to it, but not both. 

That's the shit we think before having kids. 'I can so totally do it all.' 
No, we can not. 
That is a lie. 
You will not like the end of that story. 
It will come heavily medicated. 
Do not let them tell you that lie. 
Do not tell yourself that lie. 

But, you will and you'll think I'm crazy, or that it will be different for you. 
Until it's not. 

So, yes, had I known then what I know now, I would do it all over again and thoroughly different. 
Would you? 

Advocate for speaking my fucking truth; Mother making the impossible possible and not glorifying it, Sarah K. Grundy 


October 17, 2017

Stay Divine. Fall with the Leaves. Breakthrough.

Fall..that smell of freshly sharpened pencils, new beginnings, boldness, courageous shedding of layers and breaking through old paradigms. 

AYURVEDA. Mother Earth. Witches from the Salty Seas.

Include these ingredients into your day now that the season has turned. 

Pomegranate: The pomegranate has been heralded for centuries, and in fact, it’s one of the oldest known fruits in existence. Lucky for us, this gorgeous fruit is still plentiful and we’re able to enjoy the benefits of its jewel-like seeds and juice, which is brimming with free-radical zapping antioxidants. These antioxidants have been shown to lower cholesterol, improve heart health, and possibly inhibit the growth of cancerous cells. On top of this, pomegranates are a great source of iron and vitamin C, and vitamin B-6 which helps keep your body functioning as it should.

Pomegranate seeds are delicious as they are, but they’re also incredible tossed into salads, soups, and smoothies. The next time you break out your juicer, try adding in a few pomegranate seeds to reap their rewards.

Pumpkin: It seems only natural to start this list with the most autumnal of them all, doesn’t it? Pumpkin is ubiquitous for fall and on top of being flavorful, this squash is also jam packed with good-for-you vitamins and minerals. Pumpkin is incredibly rich in fiber, which helps to keep you feeling full longer and keeps your digestive tract healthy. Pumpkin is also rich in folate, which aids in cell renewal, and is an amazing source of vitamin A, which helps keep your vision sharp. Just 1 cup of pumpkin contains over 200 percent of your recommended daily intake of vitamin A!

While it’s great mixed into baked goods and smoothies, pumpkin is even better when it’s incorporated into savory dishes like soups and stews. You can even roast it and mix it into pasta and rice dishes for an easy meal. And don’t toss the seeds! Pumpkin seeds are rich in phytosterols, plant-based chemicals that have been shown to lower cholesterol, and they also contain tryptophan, an amino acid that can help boost your mood.

Beets: People seem to either love or hate beets, and I fall into the former category. In my opinion, beets are pretty awesome. These jewel-tone root vegetables were originally harvested for their greens only, but over time people caught on to how delicious the roots were as well, and good thing, because these earthy vegetables are also nutritional powerhouses. Along with vitamin C, folate, and manganese, beets are also a unique source of betaine. Never heard of betaine? You’re not alone, but this elusive nutrient aides in reducing inflammation and has been shown to protect cells from environmental stresses and about a million other things. Beets are also an incredible detoxifyer and help to purify your blood and your liver. And don’t throw out those greens! Buying a bunch of whole beets is a nutritional two-for-one: the greens themselves contain even more iron than spinach.

Beets and beet greens are super simple to prepare. The root can be roasted, juiced, shaved onto salads, and thrown into almost anything. The greens can be steamed, sauteed, or mixed into soups and salads; whichever way you make them, they’re sure to be delicious.

Pears: After researching their nutritional benefits, I’m working on including this autumnal fruit much more into my day. Just the skin of pears contains over half of the entire fruit’s dietary fiber and three to four times as many antioxidants. Pretty incredible, right? Pears are also a great source of fiber and can help aide in lowering oxidative stress on our cells.

Pears are great raw, but my favorite way to eat them is roasted or baked as a dessert. They’re also an amazing addition to salads and can even be tossed on the grill and served as a sweet accompaniment to a savory dish.

Squash: Besides pumpkin, there are countless numbers of other squash available this season, and you should definitely pick some up. Depending on which type you choose, squash is generally an amazing source of fiber and vitamin C, and also contains high percentages of potassium, which can help muscle performance and vitamin A, which helps development.

If you’re new to the wide world of squashes, I think the two friendliest are acorn and butternut. Try trimming and roasting a butternut squash, or making it into butternut squash soup, or try making a stuffed acorn squash. Once you get the hang of it, explore the countless other varieties out there, each one with their own amazing benefits.


Cinnamon doesn’t just smell heavenly, it also has a number of great health benefits and is actually a powerful medicinal herb used for years in traditional Chinese medicine as a remedy for colds and headaches, among other things. Cinnamon is known to be a great digestive aid and also helps lower cholesterol and balance blood sugar. Even the scent is said to boost cognitive function and memory! I love adding a small dash of cinnamon to coffee or tea, or on top of oatmeal. Cinnamon and honey in tea is incredibly soothing and delicious.

Juniper Berries Juniper berries are commonly used as a spice in preparing hearty type dishes. As a veg head, the only way I've ever consumed them was in a beverage, but they are delicious! Their health benefits including improving digestion, lowering blood sugar and improving kidney health. Mix juniper berries with cinnamon and cloves and any other desired ingredients, simmer, strain and serve hot!


Turmeric is native to Southeast Asia and a member of the ginger family, and is thought by many cultures to be one of the most beneficial substances around. It is a common ingredient in Southeast Asian foods, and was also often used in ancient Indian medicine, Ayurveda. Turmeric is a powerful antioxidant that some studies show can also be used to block the growth of certain cancers. It is also a potent anti-inflammatory. It is best incorporated into food raw – just sprinkle a bit in soup or mix in with salad dressing and enjoy its mild flavor and many health benefits! Oh, and the unexpected uses – turmeric can be mixed with plain yogurt to create a skin cream to promote healthier skin, and it can also be used to make a really beautiful natural dye!


I actually never knew this is what nutmeg looked like! I’m used to the ground, reddish brown powder that you get when these are ground up. Nutmeg is one of my favorite additions to sprinkle on top of soup in the fall – it has a very potent flavor so you only need small amounts. Medicinally, nutmeg has powerful antibacterial properties and can effectively kill bacteria in the mouth, preventing cavities and sickness – and nutmeg oil can be used to treat toothaches! Other health benefits include mixing with honey to help with nausea, indigestion and even anxiety and depression.


Last but not least, cloves are another great seasonal spice that can help remedy colds, skin problems and more. Cloves work surprisingly well as an expectorant if you have a cough – add a couple cloves to your tea and let it do its work! For an unexpected use, a small satchel of cloves in a drawer can give your clothes a lovely aroma and also keep them fresh. Combine ground cloves with honey to make a homemade facial remedy that will help fight breakouts and balance out your skin.

Stay tuned for the next series on oils, stones and flowers that will uplift also.

September 3, 2017

An Island and a Dream #2

In October it will be 2 years that we moved to Long Beach Island and began this wanderlust lifestyle; Traveling between islands in Florida during the summer months while the LBI home rents.

Part of me screams, 'I'm getting too "old" for this shit,' (I'm so not old) while the other part belts out a resounding, 'You're at the precipice, where we're designed to stop, don't.' There's no turning back now. Once you've seen how big life can be, going back to playing small isn't an option, no matter how scary it gets.
You keep going forward, even if looking backwards has become a thing.
Just know, that the closer we get to what we desire, the more intense it gets and when all the tools we've learned need to be put into practice; Yoga, meditations, self care, nutrition, self worth, self love, education, community all become the life line.

Do you remember where it all started? An Island and a dream #1 blog talks about it and I needed to look back to remember because it's all getting really big and has officially fully come to life.
The signs carried us here and what we've gained and lost has all been important.

We've lost touch with some people, places, things and ideas, but the bonds with others seem to have strengthened despite time, space, distance and a lot of changes. I love seeing that truth come out.

I like to consider these years as a purification.
A time where what and who really was meant to be in our lives rose to the top, while the rest flew away to where it was meant to go.

We're about to embark on our last year of this purifying, healing, recovering, somewhat isolated island metamorphosis. The year ahead will differ in that we'll be taking bi-monthly trips into our favorite city, Philadelphia. The girls for school (and friends) and me for business (and pleasure.)

We're considering this year our re-acclimation into the land of the living and the urban lands we love; That keep the fire in our bellies alive, filled with connection, purpose and practice.

After all is said and done, a period "away from it all" has always served as a reset, reboot and realignment of who we are as humans. We've done it before and we'll likely do it again at some point. If you've never, you deserve the experience at least once for you and the family. I'm not talking about a two week vacation; Live outside the fucking box and get clear on who you all really are and what you're meant to bring to this life.
You will survive. I promise.

It's like when you're off with eating habits or vibes in relationships, fasting and abstaining has a profound affect. Furthermore, when you're manifesting something big in your life, islands, as well as peacefulness contribute a great deal. We are a testimony to that being very real.

2 years later, we assisted in saving a man his family beach home, we regained our health, we found a place deep within which was previously encompassed by noise, and nurtured it; We have an unbreakable bond with the sea, each other and the circle we've cultivated around us. Our purpose is clear as fuck and unshakable. We have arrived.

In the last phase of our island living, I'll be journeying on the priestess path and continuing to open the door for women's empowerment, health, wellness, fitness and business; The twins will be getting reconnected with their life in Philly, taking a journey with a devoted Ashtanga teacher here on the island before we go and growing their skills as brilliant artists.

It's been such a pleasure being able to reach people more globally and those who we normally wouldn't had we continued to be as social and less online based, which all changed while we were away and remote as three toucans in the rainforest.
That has been a gift, returned me to my writing, and blazed a trail that knows no bounds.

With that said, we'll be re-entering the land of the living little by little and selectively, our tolerance for negativity, bull shit, and toxic living has no home, we're more than who we were before, yet so much the same and who we've always been.
Time to go home.

Can't wait to squeeze you all up soon.
You know who you are🖤

With Love, Sarah

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Sarah Grundy, Purveyor of the Goddess Within 
Author of the Mazey Lotus Love Letters
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August 24, 2017


By Sarah K Grundy

It's not like it seems in the fog. There's an entire horizon that was hiding behind the blur, the mask, the lies, the ego, the inflated realities.
To be where the divine lives that's where we can see. We're never alone, not even in the isolation periods when we're exploring, discovering and finding our path.
Traveling through time and space. Wandering the past and uniting with the you of the future. Mending beyond a cellular level that which was torn away and delivering it into the light.
Connecting and trusting the unfolding, the becoming. Welcoming the abundance. Move like nature moves amidst the change. Blossom.

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