February 21, 2017

Stay Wild

 
How I set myself free of alcohol, adderrall,coffee,addiction,anxiety, depression, fight, or fight, autoimmune and unhealthy lifestyle patterns. 

The full step by step e-book will be released soon. 

It was from rock bottom that I built a dream. 
I crawled out from the darkest place you can imagine, crying, yelling, WILD and SPREAD MY WINGS TO FLY. 
I flew as high as I could with my broken, patched up wings and believed I could heal. I became a seeker again and trusted my gut. When I found what I knew from that deep down innocence could help me, I would do it with sheer determination and devotion. 
Without hesitation.
I was broke, but I found a way to invest in this adventure that I knew was my way back to the WILD. 

 I had to really decide and not let fear stop me. I was terrified. All of the tools that worked for me may, or may not work for you, but some of them apply and will work for every living being! As far as nutrition, fitness, yoga, meditation and tapping into your body, I suggest my Black Moon e-book. I’ll be going over some of those methods at the end, but not all. It took me two decades to create illness and a decade to transform it. 

Start from a place of Stillness. You are the only one who knows how to rise up, but you can’t do it alone. 

LISTEN
There is a place inside us all, and an energy all around us that makes all things possible. A deep inner silence can allow you to hear it. It’s tangible and alive. It’s not airy fairy. It’s an entity, studied by science, but the way to embrace it is through your own life experience not through lots of talking about it, but with expression and connection. 

Try it now
Go somewhere quiet. Preferably outdoors. Sit, or stand. Whatever makes you comfortable. Palms open to the sky. Eyes closed. With absolute surrender, feel your heart beating in your chest. Breathe naturally, whatever makes you able to feel each thump, each pump of blood coursing through your entire body through each organ, vessel. Take some time with that sensation. Feel how it begins to radiate onto the outside sending gentle waves across your skin. Sense the prana tickling those little hairs on your arm, hands, legs, down to your toes. If your mind starts to intervene return to listening and feeling the thump of your heart pulsating blood through the body. Feel yourself as a vessel for source energy to pass through. Don’t cling to it, or think about it. This is something void of thought. Allow it to pass through. Go back to the heart beat. Breathe. Tune back into the heartbeat. Stay there. 

Everything happens from that space inside. 
It senses intention, thoughts, vibrations, and manifests everything you can see, touch and feel. We can choose to honor that in our actions, in our lives, or not. It doesn’t partial. It’s universal and speaks to all of us. It will be there even if you ignore it and it will be waiting. 

The opposite of addiction is connection. 
Community, tapping into my inner rhythms, living by the laws of nature, intuition and my heart beat took me out of illness into really living. There were steps, tools, mentors and a will to survive that could not be stopped. Trust, instincts, passion, action, movement, trial and error, listening to my experiences, allowing loss, and deciding to rise at all cost made the impossible possible. It took fortitude and self study, as well as research on what really makes me tick and all of the medicine we have available to us. My story starts with sickness, but ends with finding my intuitive self and true boundless freedom. 

We can talk about what works all day, but it was in doing that I found what I needed to recover and heal. It started with a diagnosis, medications and things getting worse before they got better. I was in my 20’s and had no idea that my entire life had been feeding this illness. My surroundings, my choices, my behaviors, my ego. 
My energy became a magnet for more and more of it until I was buried. I started to numb myself from the pain and as you may suspect that’s when things got really exciting. 

Coffee, was my life force. At the time I had no idea, it was actually draining it. Cigarettes, and pot were my fire and breath. I had no idea it was actually putting out my fire. Alcohol, was my spirit guide. I had no idea it was actually muting my spirit and my guides.
I knew. 
Somewhere in me, I always knew. 
So do you.
Everyone else around me was doing it. It was a part of life. Dinner with wine. Morning chats with coffee. Cigarettes and drinking with dorms and college midterms, followed by pot and whatever else was there to infuse my experience. 
Then crash. 
I wasn’t accessing any of my power. 
I was walking, but very much dead.

One day I woke up. 
I knew all of this was weakening me. 
It created a cycle and led me straight to death. Spiraling the drain in one dead end relationship after another. 
I knew I had to change. 
I had to fight for my life. 
I fled. 
That’s what took me to the root of the problem. 
Then it got worse. 
I worked through the root of the problem with the same toxic methods. 

ACTION
It was from rock bottom that I built a dream. 
I crawled out from the darkest place you can imagine, crying, yelling, WILD and SPREAD MY WINGS TO FLY. 
I flew as high as I could with my broken, patched up wings and believed I could heal. I became a seeker again and trusted my gut. When I found what I knew from that deep down innocence could help me, I would do it with sheer determination and devotion. Without hesitation. I was broke, but I found a way to invest in this adventure that I knew was my way back to the WILD. 

A decade later my wings are BRIGHT and getting more colorful everyday. 

WHY
I wanted to live. It was always about life and finding more of it. Being freeing. Flying high. Feeling, seeing and sharing that with my friends, family and the world.  

Stay tuned for HOW in the Stay Wild e-book free to Goddess Project membersą„

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